The drugs.

The medical treatment for ADHD is interesting, and there is a lot of negative media floating around the internet about it. In essence, doctors give constantly over-stimulated people (ADHD-ers) a stimulant. Funny right? I imagine it went something like this: “Let’s just give em’ a little dose of speed every morning… that should do the trick!”. Continue reading

Crisis and enlightenment.

I sat on the contact for the potential new therapist for a few months. By the summer of 2016, things at work had gone into autopilot mode, and for the first time I felt like I had a steady workload. No huge surprises, more certainty in upcoming deadlines, and confidence in my role as the leader of this organization. I was also making strides in meal preparations, even if they were inconsistent- for the first time in two years (mostly) regularly eating lunch. My car was still a constant mess, and there were clothes strewn all over my bedroom, but my soul could see the light. I was no longer drowning.

Until October came. Continue reading

Therapy 1.0

About two years into feeling like an absolute chaotic mess, I decided it was time to go see a therapist. I needed some tools to cope with my out of control feelings of anxiety, depression, anger, and numbness. I found someone online, and went for two visits. Both were nice and slightly productive, but felt superficial. I needed something more than to just talk to someone about it- I had lots of friends that were open and receptive to discussion who were way less expensive. Continue reading

Starting at the beginning.

In April 2014, was hired on as the Executive Director of an environmental non-profit with annual budget of about $275,000 at the age of 24. At the time of my hiring, I was still a full-time graduate student pursuing a Master’s in Wetland Ecology. I applied for the position looking for interview experience, and wound up with my dream job focused on my favourite river. How could a girl say no? Continue reading